Little Secret Dreams of mine

The road that makes us walk different path, separates us

Though we share the same dreams and goal
One day, you and I will still go on our different way
This is part of life
If there's a hello between us means there will be a goodbye too
Just like the saying, "Nothing last forever."

Keeping these thought only to myself
I cry alone, silently
I don't want to let you know
So you will not remember I have shed tears for you
So you can focus in your own dreams without any hesitations.

I may sound emotional
But knowing you will be happy in the future
I feel the joy in me somehow
It is pain to let you go at first
However I can't be a selfish brat to keep you stay.

There will be a lot of challenges along the way
And changes in the hereafter
Even so, don't give up
Sometimes you may feel lonely or sad
But remember, I am right behind you,
Cheering for you
Praying and hoping to see you until you reach your dreams.

- These are my dreams that I didn't tell you -

Stay happy, my dearest.....

Since now my brothers are back from Australia for 1 month, so me and brothers are running around like there's no tomorrow.. Super tired.. What can I say more, I am tired but of course I am very happy too.. After this week, they will be going back to Australia again, my life is going to be the usual thing..

Anyway, just few days ago, me, my brothers and mom went to Genting then later to Bukit Tinggi.. Fun trip~ 1 word says it all.. HAPPY~ :)

We woke up quite early because we wanted to be there early.. But it was actually a kinda regret thing because ended up we still need to wait for another few more hours to check-in.. == Few pictures below are the boring-faces pictures.. XDD

My brother, Anton..

My eldest brother, Rhys..

And my mom..

Too bored, so decided to put our luggage back to the car then walk outside and feel the fresh air.. It wasn't cold at all.. I mean, ya, there is a bit cold, but still not as cold as last time.. Maybe because of the global warming.. T.T

My 2 brothers never love to look the camera.. ==

About 4 o'clock.. Finally we manage to check-in.. And this is our room~ We stayed in First World Hotel..

Then for dinner, we eat steamboat~~~ :D Nice~ This steamboat can even cook or fry your food.. XDDD Me and my brothers were so happy playing "masak-masak".. Hahahhha..

Then about 11pm, we went to have a drink~ I forgot what is the cafe name but 1 thing I know, their hot chocolate is very cute.. *see the picture below* As you can see, the chocolate is outside, and the milk is beside it. You need to dip the chocolate into it then only it will become as a hot chocolate~ :D

The night view from the cafe

Then the next morning, we went to Ripley's believe it or not.. Interesting place to be and it is really recommended to whoever are going to Genting.. Because its really worth it~

(Lazy to type much, so let's make it short from here.. From this picture onwards are pictures in Bukit Tinggi..)


Reminds me of Fatal Frame game..

My brother here is trying to kill a leech that just sucked my mom's leg.. Eww.. Scary.. Though I love the GazettE - Leech song.. But I hate leech~! =A=



On the way back.. The sky is absolute pretty~

And finally~~~ *plays the hero song* My MTV world stage ticket is here!!!!!!!!! >< I am going to meet you again, Georg~~~~~~~

That's all for now, I am so lazy now.. XD Ciao~

Long ago CosFest..

I know its a been very long time ago event, but even so.. Here are the CosFest pictures~~~~ From my dear sister's facebook of coz~ XD Lazy to post all out in here..

Here's day 1 > http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=181959&id=636243919
And here's day 2 > http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=182277&id=636243919

A lot of camwhores.. XD Please don't mind about it~ Hehehe

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Tried new make up during CosFest 2nd day.. This time added red into the color~ Plus black of course.. :D

And it turns out like the old-school Kai from the GazettE.. =.= Especially this picture.. Hahahaha.. Love it though.. XD
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And lastly, I finally found another usagi to complete my cute collection of usagi's~ XD At 1st, I only bought 3 bunnies, then when I saw 1 more, I thought it was lonely, so I decided to buy it~

From left - Jean, Chiru, Yumi and Catz~

Happy yet sad

Just came back from SG and now I am very tired.. Cosfest was really very nice~! Really very fun and it was really a amazing experience to be there..

But the thing is, it was fun and happy and all the positive things.. But I don't know why am I feeling so sad and kinda depress right now.. Its like something I didn't do, something that keeps bothering in my mind.. Maybe is just because I don't want to be back into the reality.. Or maybe there is something else that I don't know..

Damn.. *sigh* Either way, CosFest was fun.. Don't want to spoil my whole mood of CosFest.. So I will post some pictures in the next blog when I get from my sister, Cheryl~ Too tired and not in the mood to talk much now..

Nights to everybody and Good bye and see you again, CosFest..

I am back?? =w=

Wah~~~ So long didn't update my blog.. XDDDD *wipe away the dust* Just don't know what to update, furthermore, thanks to my shitty computer, I can't upload pictures sometimes, so makes me lazier to update.. XDDDD Either way, now I am here, so just randomly post my recently happening stuff then~ :D

Last sunday, went out together with Cheryl and we ate the Japan very famous crepes~! OwO Very delicious!! I hate bananas, but this crepes seems to make the banana very delicious~! XD Maybe bacause the combination of the strawberry ice-cream and chocolate toppings.. Hahaha..

Yummy~~~

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Then lately, I got my yukata set already~! =3 Very happy!! Thank you, Black Catz for helping me to order!! I choose the pattern of asagao(flower print) because of some reason.. Hahahaha..


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Next thing.. I have change my blogskin~ Thank you to Black Catz again, if not my blog might have a lot of problem.. ==;;; This new blogskin is a little bit similar to my previous blogskin.. Love this new blogskin but also misses my old 1 too.. T^T So credits to whoever created this blogskin and my previous blogskin~

GazeRock is not DEAD~!!!!!! >D

I am now writing my blog early in the morning.. I feeling sad but yet happy feeling now, I don't know what's that too, but that's what I am feeling now.. The joy of a missing pieces, I guess... Hahaha.. Sounds so emo, but I am not, I am really happy.. Hahaha.. What the hell am I talking..?? ==

I miss those days when you both are with me,
I miss those memories we created together,
I miss those hot chocolates and espresso that we always drink in Starbucks,
I miss those stupid words that came out from you both to bombard me like hell,
I miss those games that we used to play even though we know its going to spoil soon,
I miss those voice,
I miss those laughter,
I miss those warmth,
I miss everything about it...
Tell me not to be attach to things like this, I can't, its so not me..
Because everything is too dear to me...
I can't let it go..
I can never let it go..

the GazettE's new singles finally came out their preview song!! *happy*

But then, when I hear their song and got to know its for Kuroshitsuji 2 OP theme song.. Got kinda potong steam.. == Hahaha.. But I think its ok because Ruki's voice is still as handsome as ever and his new looks is.... errrghhh.... TOO HANDSOME TOO!!! He is wearing leather.. OMFG!!! Hahaha...


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Can anyone guess what is this?? Hahahaha... XD Is an frozen egg!! And the unbelievable thing is, the egg is without the shell, how can it still be in 1 piece?? I can't believe my eyes when my mom show this to me.. Hahahaha...

Continuously 4 days, I am in heaven~~~~ Because I can get to eat my favorite cake from "Just Heavenly"~!!!!! We bought Durian cheese cake, Black Forest, Peach cake and Apple crumble cheese cake.. 1 day each cake~ Its so damn delicious!!! XD Plus, to get the extra taste, I drink my favorite tea - Earl Grey tea too~

Just like in the heaven~~~

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Then lately, tried a new make up~ It actually came out quite nice, but not as nice as I expected though.. Hehehe.. The teardrop part is damn hard, I have correct it a lot of times to get the right 1.. So with all my effort, it came out...

Like this~ XD

This is a candid shot~! XD

Lately, I have notice something.. Something that I must really screw into my brain.. Which is.. A secret.. hahaha.. Hmm.. But will try to put into words..

As time passes by, I found out that if you and your best friends are so call the "really true friendship" type, you both also have something that is REALLY annoying part you both don't like about each other.. Its actually hard to swallow but that's the fact, nobody is perfect. Even though maybe your best friend has saved you from a car crash or what-so-ever, she maybe imperfect too..

So what I am trying to say here is, if you and her are best friends, no matter "what-the-hell happen" or "why-the-hell-is-she-doing-this-to-me" or "why-is-she-sometimes-so-damn-f**king-annoying", the bonds between you and her are still there.. We are humans, so better don't expect perfect from your friends is the best.. Don't expect she will give you something when you give her something. Don't expect she will love you more if you love her more.. Is best that you love her for being who she is, she may be cold to you, but maybe that's how she show love in your friendship~ Comes to think of it, its actually better too, because your friendship is real rather than having some fake friends just trying to act good in front of you.. (I hate those friends very much..) And if you found out that she keeps lying to you, then that is a different story.. Don't be silly and believe everything she says and accept her for lying to you.. In a friendship, lies are forbidden.. (That's what I think..)

Either way, I think this applies in couples too.. I means should say every relationship in life, don't care family, friends or partners..

I think I have talk too much.. Hehehe.. Just trying to express myself.. I cherish my friends very much, they are too important to me until my mom gets angry because of some certain things.. Hahaha.. I feel like I can't live without them.. Hahaha.. Sometimes I feel silly for thinking this way, but I myself just can't help it, I love them~ Hahahahha..

Loves you both the most~

Last friday went to Driving exam.. And guess what? I FAIL!!!! TTATT It was so unfair, I fail because my side mirror touches the yellow line a bit, and is really just a little bit~~!!!! DAMN!!!


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Then lately, I took some pictures of my Glen.. He is so cute~~ Muacks~~

I took this picture when he is looking at my Ruki's picture.. And then, Glen decided to do something..

He decided to post like him.. Hahahaha.. XD So cute~~~

After doing a pose like Ruki.. I took some other random pictures of Glen.. Lazy to post all out again.. So just post a few..


Oh my Glen, I will forever love you and take care of you~~~~ CHUUU~~~~