My nightmare is back again.. I am scare.. I feel very insecure.. I try to hide away from it, but still useless.. I try to run away from it, but it seems like I am going into it more than further away from it.. Why do I feel this way? Slowly, slowly I am like seeing my nightmare even in real life too..

I hate my memories, I hate my childhood.. If only I can just forget everything, my life would be so much more better. I am very happy now, but my memories are killing me. The thoughts of just a little of my memories are suck! Damn it! F**K! I hate it!


WAH~~~~!!! It's been a very busy week last week even though I didn't went to school and work.. == Last Monday, right after the day I work on Sunday, I went to Kuantan with my mom and uncle Charles for vacation.. :D

And because I didn't practice much for my guitar so I bring along my "ruki" - my guitar name. XD At 1st my mom was making noises about it, but still I insist of bringing it along so manage to convince her~ HAHAHA!!

Here's my "ruki"~ I even bring along my Neo Genesis because I was scared I might be bored.. ==

So about 11 morning we took off and reach there about 4 evening.. We put everything into the hotel 1st then went around the town then we saw the beach an decided to come down and feel the sea breeze..

Charles looks like he is painting the sky..

Everything has a hope even though it may looks like impossible.. Just like the fisherman over there..

This is the fisherman's village..

Tired, after the sunset, we start to hunt for dinner. *skip all the story* The next day~

My uncle was driving to the Cherating Beach so I was inside the car and trying to take picture then "chik chak". Came out such a nice effect picture~ :D This was a really very sudden picture..

Here is Cherating Beach.. The beach is really very nice.. My mom and uncle doesn't really like to walk under the sun, so I walked alone on the beach.. It was actually quite lonely because for all my years, whenever I walk on the beach, my brothers are always there with me and we will go very very far away and find something interesting.. But this time I am alone..

After staying in Cherating Beach, we went to our next destination - Teluk Cempadak.. Is also another beach, but this is more beautiful..

This picture reminds me of Australia.. =3=

Then the next day, in order to go to Lake Chini, we checked out from the hotel early and start our journey.. It was very hard to find the way to Lake Chini.. == It took about 2 hours to reach there..

When we reached there, it was under construction so we can only go for the boat riding..

This tree looks very scary in real life. I don't know how to describe in words but it looks like 1 of the tree in a movie call Sleepy Hollow.. This tree is 150 years old...

This is a snake hole.. Rumors about this hole was last time there was a huge snake staying inside.. As big as a tree log.. (sounds like Anaconda) It eat anything that comes along the lake.. *scary* But now don't know went where already.. Heard it was killed or just past away.. Dunno..

That's all for the Kuantan trip.. I was super tired after the trip but was really a interesting trip~ :D
Ok, I am very happy today, I am very3 happy until I am speechless.. Because FINALLY I pass my basic foundation make up~~ X3 Me and 1 of my friend, Jaclynn has pass too~ ^^

Here's a sneakpeak inside my studio and some camwhore because of overjoy~ XD

This is the table, it is always fill with make up stuffs, tissues, cotton buds, cotton pads and bla bla bla.. (anything that is related to make up) Here you can also see my seniors and teachers farther away~ And nearer is Jaclynn standing there cleaning up her foundation~ ^^

From left : Irene, me and Jaclynn

Me camwhoring~~ XD

Because of passing my basic foundation, I bought myself a shandy to cheers for myself.. hahaha.. I super love this drink but my mom actually don't really allow me to drink.. =3= And still I drink~ Don't know, don't care, happy always~ hahaha.. This is my philosophy~

Cheers for myself~~

And last friday, something happen between me and Black Catz, is very3 funny and exciting. It's been very long since I have "this" kind of feeling.. Thankies Catz~ XD *Only Catz know what I am talking about~ hahaha*

Catz and my the GazettE - Guren, optical and auditory edition and Antic Cafe - Aroma limited edition have arrive~~~ happy happy happy~ These few days were really a unforgettable days.. ^^


I have already start my studies last week and got a lot of cosmetics from M.A.C, Shu Uemura and NARS!! OMG!! In my whole make up life, I have never bought so many branded cosmetics.. Its too expensive for me.. But.. but now.. I got it~!! >< *overjoy*

This is my make up case. Its super heavy. I have decorated it with my name and the GazettE logo~ hohoho~~!!! >D Cool right?? HOHOHO!!!

But now, talking about make up, there is still something bad. 1st, I am stuck in the most basic foundation for 4 days already.. grghhh... So hard, my teachers are all so straight, they look at every details of the face.. T^T I must work hard.. 2nd, I am very tired because after class I need to go to work.. If not, I need to take the public bus home and then walk 10 minutes.. TIRED TIRED TIRED!!!

Now about work.. *sigh* As usual, I am very tired.. Still thinking whether to continue my job or to stop after March.. =3=

Anyway, this is 1 of the pictures I took when I was working last week. The decoration behind is still in the CNY mood.. XD This drink really helps to wake me up, but at the same time makes me keep going to toilet.. ==